Friday, March 8, 2013

Reminiscing


I love these little boys so much!  I wish time could slow down... they grow up so fast!

Welcome to the world...

Kade Jeffery Gardner

Clint and Jamie's baby was born on March 5 and he is so cute!  We love him already.
CONGRATS you two!

Monday, March 4, 2013

Picture Preview

My VERY beautiful and VERY TALENTED cousin Jessa was in Kanab last week so we had her take some pictures of the kids.  Here is a little preview!  I LOVE THEM!  Thanks Jessa.





Wednesday, February 27, 2013

The UNEXPECTED

Life is so unpredictable...
I have always sent Trev off to work saying something like "bye, love you, be safe" but I have never once thought that there is a very real chance that something could happen to him at work.  That he actually might not come home.  We go through life not living in the "What ifs?" and that is how we live!  We can't live in fear our entire lives.  We have to put our faith in God and actually live! But then all of the sudden, those tragic moments, the WHAT IF moments happen and we can't believe it.  We don't want to believe it.  Life seems surreal and unfair.  We start thinking if I had only...  We think how just one little thing could have changed the outcome.  But that is the same as living in fear.  We can't live that way... as hard and as impossible as it seems we can't dwell on it and if things had been differently.  We have to turn to the Savior and be grateful that through him we can get through our trials- whatever they may be.
I am a strong believer in the phrase "GOD WON'T GIVE YOU MORE THAN YOU CAN HANDLE"  I know there are times we think we can't handle this challenge or this trial, but we can.  Through Jesus Christ we can overcome all things!
When tragedy hits it is a reminder to hug your baby one more time each day, sing the song or read the book they choose, kiss your spouse good bye and never take for granted the wonderful lives we live.  We can't live in fear we need to just live.  Sometimes it is hard to do, but if crying helps (which I believe it does), then cry... just cry.
Hilary Weeks wrote the song Just Let Me Cry.  In explaining the story of why she wrote this song she said,
 "Crying is part of healing.  It is a necessary step in the process.  It doesn't mean we don't have hope or faith.  It doesn't mean that we don't believe in the Atonement or the Savior's ability to heal us.  It is simply part of the journey back to joy."

Just Let Me Cry
By Hilary Weeks

I believe that everything happens for a reason
we're not just tossed by the wind and left in the hands of fate
but sometimes life sends a storm that's unexpected
and we're forced to face our deepest pain

And when I feel the heartache begin to pull me under
I dig my heels in deep and I fight to keep my ground
Still at times the hurt inside grows stronger
and there's noting I can do but let it out

So just let me cry
I know it's hard to see
but the pain I feel isn't going away today
so just let me cry
Til every tear has fallen
don't ask when, and don't ask why
just let me cry

When I agreed that God could put his heart inside me
I understood that there would be a chance that it would break
but I know he knows exactly how I'm feeling
And I know in time he'll take the pain away

But for now just let me cry

I know it's hard to see
but the pain I feel isn't going away today
so just let me cry
Til every tear has fallen
don't ask when, and don't ask why
just let me cry

I have felt joy, the kind that makes my heart want to sing
And so my tears are not a surrender, I'll feel that way again
But for now, for this moment


just let me cry
I know it's hard to see
but the pain I feel isn't going away today
so just let me cry
Til every tear has fallen
don't ask when, and don't ask why
just let me cry

I believe that everything happens for a reason




One of Trevor's coworkers, Jason, was killed in a work accident last night.  He left behind a young beautiful family.  He left a beautiful wife, Lacy, and two beautiful daughters.  He was also a son, a brother and an overall great guy!  I can't help but cry for them today.  My heart aches for Lacy and her children.  I pray they can find comfort in the savor and continue to live, so they can be with Jason again.  He was an amazing father and husband.  Until we meet again.



Tuesday, February 12, 2013

We should have called him Dennis!

20 MONTHS and COULDN'T BE MORE NAUGHTY!!

My little Caleb monster is already 20 months! Time is just flying by!  Caleb has such a fun personality, he is so happy (most the time).  He weighs in around 24-25 pounds and he is kind of a shorty pants!  He still doesn't really talk, which is getting hard on him and me.  He is the professional grunter!  He has a small vocabulary.  Some of the words he can say: momma, dad, moo, ruff, raaahh (rahr- what a lion says), this, there it is, ear, nigh nigh, bye bye, ba (bottle- which is funny, since it is a cup and I never call it a bottle), wa (water), wow, ow (ouch), da (dog), beh (bear).  He is slowly learning! He is so fun, but he is naughty!  Just today: Using a bath toy he dumped at least 1-2 cups of water on the bathroom floor.  Climbed out of the bathtub and peed on the rug.  dumped an entire bottle of water out on the couch.  Hid in the pantry with Kelson and they ate a bunch of animal crackers.  Dumped out the crumbs from a bag of cereal.  Took garbage out of the trash can.  Took all the books off of the book shelf, also half the movies. Dumped out an entire basket of toys- didn't play with them and left the room.  Dumped out almost a full cup of water on the kitchen floor and tried to drink it off the floor. Climbed/fell out of his crib- instead of naptime.  Colored on a closet door with a pencil.  He had a very busy and eventful day.  Some of the other things he has done recently... empty a full box of tissues onto the floor, unroll the toilet paper, color on 2 walls in 2 different rooms with colored pencils, dump his dinner plate on the floor, empty his clothes drawers, climb the shelves in his closet, take multiple things out of the kitchen drawers and cupboards (tupperware, utilincils, etc.), rip up an entire note pad, and etc.  He sure does make life interesting!
Even though my life is filled with little menacing things I love that boy so much!


Thursday, January 31, 2013

Random...

This post is really random, but I wanted to do an update for January and post some pictures of these cute faces.
What we have been up to...

Riding stick horses 


 Making play-dough creations


Getting hair cuts before (above) after (below)










 Playing with medicine while sick with RSV


 Rylee turned 1!!








Went to a party & enjoyed some cake



Took naps under the table.

Thankful Thursday

I haven't been very faithful at posting Thankful Thursday posts...  But  I AM THANKFUL.
Today I am thankful for new beginnings, chances to make right and start fresh.  I am thankful that even though we all make mistakes it is possible to be forgiven and try to be better.
I have had such the negative outlook on everything lately and I don't like it!  I have been more careful of my thoughts, words and actions the last week and have tried to be more positive.  I can't believe how much better my day goes when I do this.  I am thankful that the things I have done and said in the last month or so can be forgotten and forgiven.  I am so glad that I have this new year (kinda late I know) to try to be a better mom, a more positive person, less judgmental, and true friend.
TODAY I"M THANKFUL FOR WHAT I CAN BE!!!